What Christmas means to me

The real meaning of Christmas to me, Thankfulness for Jesus giving his life for me and my family and friends, to be able to see them and take this time to let them know I love them, to slow down in my life and focus on family and gatherings to express my love and God's love for them, some though gifts or baked goodies or just a hug and smile, for some lunch or coffee......just stop in life and reflect and be grateful for unto us this day a Savior is born!

This morning I have had quiet time to reflect and ponder (again) sitting here in my chair with soft music and the lights of the Christmas tree:) The house is quiet all is still sleeping:) love early mornings! Today I have work and I am holding the condos open then going to take mother and Walt dinner and visit with them. Walt called and wanted to take mother to the casino for Christmas, last yea they decided that and Steve and I took them for two days, we were wore out, they stay up all night, mother said she could sleep at home when I told her lets go to bed:) I just cringed at the thought of it, I know mother is worse this year and would be totally lost, so I told Walt let me look at my calender, then I called and said there is just no way for me to go before Christmas, so Walt said he would call and see about getting them a room:(((( now for the correct picture of this, Walt has a walker and walks about two steps every few minutes, mother would be beside him but not knowing where she was, and the thought of them getting their luggage and even driving to the casino blows my mind, so pray they forget this, I guess if they set out to do it, we will have no choice but to go with them. I am talking to Walt today to let him know that is not what is best for mother, he is always protective of her. It is a cold but pretty day today and I am up for a few buyers or sellers today!! Have a fun filled day!!! Oh yes.....a Christmas memory.........back in my other life I thought the children had to have exactly what they ask for, so no matter what I would get it, even if I had to write HOT checks, now this never did well in my marriage but somehow in my mind I had to give them what they wanted, that year Alicia wanted guess overalls, purple and pink and they were $75.00 a piece! I got them and remember them till this day, she loved them and was happy. Since I have learned my worth is not what I can give my children/grandchildren in material things but to let them always know I love them no matter what and how much God loves them no matter what, its not in gift giving but in love giving!! I am sure Steve wished I had known that back then, would of saved a lot of fights between us, I am not sure how he ever puts up with me!! Well so you will know I do not write hot checks anymore, I did out gown that and had some healing happen in my for me to realize my worth is not in making others happy but by being there mother or fiend or wife or co-worker!
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