Saturday, October 31, 2009
well going to bed, and looking forward to a fun day and sunshine!! hugs and nite!!
baby A has got back or above her birth weight, she and Jill are doing great!! YEA!!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Victoria and Olivia at fall festival:)
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
This is Jill's status update on facebook. Jill and Alex will stay at hospital tonight, Jill is discharged but they have a sleep room near the NICU, Baby A may go home tomorrow...pray for her:) and for Jill, Jill is exhausted and has very little rest, she has been in hospital for a week so that alone is enough to wear you totally out:)
Monday, October 26, 2009
Sunday, October 25, 2009
by the way the kitty is still here, she comes and goes:) Max loves her and wants to call her sally:) I have not heard anything form Kimberly our house guest, I hope she stayed in the hospital:)
Saturday, October 24, 2009
I am not sure where to even start this week at, it has been a hectic, unbelievable week for me. It started with church on Sunday then Jill had a baby shower, when I saw her I was worried, she looked toxic to me, I ask her when she saw the Dr. I did not want to scare her, she was going Tuesday morning, so I told her to try to rest and get off her twice or three times her size feet. Her little face was distorted with flood and her lips as if she had several collagen injections, needless to say it concerned me, she reminded me of Alicia when she was toxic with Alexandria. Then Monday I had work and agent interviews and I was cooking dinner for several people for a Southern Living Party, had the party and enjoyed it, was tired and knew the next morning I would be up early to get work things done before Steve’s surgery, when I got out of the shower Tuesday getting ready to take Steve to the hospital, I went into the kitchen and saw a lady I did not know with April, I ask who she was and April told me she had helped her get this little boy to school who had missed his bus, the little boy was eight, the lady was really manic and said she was homeless, April had got her breakfast at McDonald's and she was eating at the kitchen table, I sat down and talked to her for a few minutes, it wasn’t long and I knew she was coming off something and manic and homeless and probably running form someone or something. I told her about Celebrate Recovery and gave her the church's number and told her my sister leads a bi-polar group at celebrate every Thursday, she felt she had found hope and was elated………I told her it was time she had to go and April took her to a street a few blocks away, this is where the little boy lived. ( I did check on the little boy) For those who know me, my home has always had a open door to help people, but in 2002 when we had left our church I shut some areas of my life down, I know God has always used me with the down trodden and hopeless and the people no one wants to help and I have been skilled in those areas when working at Living Hope and thru the church in lay counseling. When I went thru so many things in the church I had just went through some times where I now realize I shut down in some areas, and my heart became hard toward some areas, as I have shared about not wanting to make new friends, I also quit getting involved in helping hurting people. A few weeks ago I felt the Lord prodding in those areas of my life and showing me where I was at and where he wanted me to be, I surrendered it to Him and ask Him to use me in what ever way He wanted, so back to my story, Steve and I got into he car and went to the hospital, I told Steve it will not surprise me if she is not on our porch when we got home, at the hospital when they had taken Steve to pre opt, I was with him and Alex called, he was scared and crying because Jill had pre eclamsia and was direct admitted from her Drs. visit to labor and delivery and they were told she would have to have the baby. She was 35 weeks to the day, I left Steve at the hospital, I had Hannah come up there and called Alicia to go with me to Alex and Jill at lr Baptist, on the way I got a call that my uncle who is not much older then me, daughter who is 32 had a brain aneurism and was not expected to live, they live in Tennessee. She did pass away today :( So my heart was heavy and I was scared for Alex and Jill and baby A. Jill’s blood pressure was real high, I was worried about leaving Steve but did not know what else to do. Steve did fine, his L 4,5,6 are completely gone and he will have surgery soon to fuse them together, his implant for his back was fixed and is now working, he is sore and getting over surgery but doing well. Jill was monitor all day Tuesday and they started inducing her labor at 1:am wed morning, Jill’s blood platelets were low and they did not want to do a c-section because she could bleed to death, the baby was doing fine, they had to put Jill on different meds, one make you hurt and burn all over and is hard on the baby, the other put her into labor, Jill stayed in hard labor for hours and began having some slight seizures, which totally scared us all, we all had to leave the room and her be in total darkness and quiet with just Alex and if he moved or talked he would have to leave, I told Jill's mother he will be perfectly still and just pray, Alex has always been the type child to be perfect in what ever he did, so I had no doubt he would be ok. Jill got somewhat better and later by 5:30ish we could go back in, of course we were quiet and just took turns helping her breath through her contractions, her epidural did not work and she was in full labor and having to breath through the contractions which were not making any progress on dilating her cervix:( at midnight wed. night the Dr.. came in and they decided to do a c-section, when Jill went to delivery I can not remember how high but her BP was about 187 over 140ish scary high and she we shivering tremors again, the baby was ok but we knew from what the drs. said she would go to NICU upon delivery, Jill, Alex and Jill’s sweet mother Belinda went into the delivery room and baby A was born, she was not breathing upon birth and they in abated (sp) her immediately and she did go to NICU, her apgar was low, her weight was ok at 5pds 2 ozs but she had some other problems to overcome, after delivery Jill started passing the fluids and toxins, her BP is still being watched but she is doing good, I came home about 4ish am and when I was going to my room I noticed the TV was on in the guest bedroom, I looked in and saw someone in he bed, I took a peek and was not sure who it was, so I woke Steve and ask him who was asleep in the guest bedroom, with all the day I had forgot about the lady:) and that is who was there, she was on the street and it was storming and Steve and April had her spend the night, Steve came when baby A was delivered but failed to tell me about it:) I got about two hours of sleep and thought I have to get up and figure out what to do with her, I promptly told the Lord I did not know He meant be ready now to help someone and I was not sure I was up for all this, my guest had not woke yet and I told Steve let her sleep till I could figure out what to do, since i had not been in counseling in so long I had lost contact with all my contacts to help people and at the places I knew of, the staff had changed. When she got up I had a talk with her, and laid down the boundaries, I am very strict in these and if someone really wants help, I will help but I am not the savior, I am the saved and a sinner just like them and they will need to look to the Lord for their help, I told her if she lied about anything it was a one chance deal for me to help her and if she really wanted to change her life then she has the opportunity and if not there is nothing I can do for her. Of course she wanted to change her life patterns:) but my thought was she is mentally sick and needs some meds, she also abused prescription drugs, but had not had any in the past two days so I was not worried about detox, Steve took her to Celebrate that night and she was glad, I was going to find a place for her to live at for a few months till she could get straight on Friday, when Steve got up Friday he told her he had heard her talk about her father and her father seemed like a good man, she said he was and Steve said he felt she should go to her father's house, she totally lost it, started crying and shaking and wringing her hands and pacing the floor, now keep in mind I worked in psych for years so I do know how to get back control, if possible and she was very hard to deal with, I told her the only help I can give her at this point is to admit her into a psych hospital because she has to get back on her meds for bi-polar, she first said no and I said then you have to leave of course you feel like a ruthless person doing this but when someone is that messed up they can not make decisions or even comprehend what you are saying so there is no need to reason with them, I then said either you get ready and were going or I am calling 911 dn they will strap you down give you a shot and take you against your will, so she did agree to go, Steve and I took her to UAMS and she was admitted, she is such a sweet lady with a sad story and really does need the help of the right kind of friends so keep her in your prayers, as I was outside that morning a little stay cat came up to me, and I thought what is the deal, I have lived here for over four years and NO ONE has ever just came to the door and no animals either, so I feed the cat and told Steve not to say anything to me about it and be nice to the cat! WE had just got home for seeing Alex and Jill and baby A when my step father called and mother had lost her purse and they needed me to come over and figure out what to do, I knew it had to be in the house because mother has her keys in it and she had to unlock her door to get in, she had gone to the beauty shop with her friend Luella, mother no longer drives and she is probably stage 3 Alzheimer's, so I went there and found it in the bottom of her closet, she was so relieved she just tuned up and cried, she tried not to, I was so glad I went and was able to find it. Of course since I was back in LR i went by and said good night to baby A:) I got home and just thought what a day that has been………today is Saturday and it has-been slower, but it started with me forgetting a appointment with a agent at 11:00am, I had slept till 9:30am and still in my PJ’s when they called me form the office, then I worked till 3ish and came home and just sat and did nothing, then went back to the hospital to say good night to baby A and Jill and Alex, I dread them going home tomorrow and having to leave baby A at the hospital but I am so thankful we have baby A and Jill that I know it will just all work out. Keep them in your prayers and Kimberly my house guest, I have no ideal what will happen with her, hopefully she will go into a rehab and change her life. Tomorrow is church and work then Monday is a full week of real estate for me and of course working it around the needs of Jill and baby A and Alex. I once heard a story of a man with six children and someone ask him, do you have a favorite child, he said well you know (I will use my children’s name) I just love Alicia she had needed me to help coach her in real estate, so she had a lot of my time but you know when Sean had his baby Cole he really needed me and I guess, well when Alex had his baby A he really needed me and I was there then Hannah had had some problems lately and I helped her a lot with her household thing and children then there is Jared and he has the sweetest little girls and his wife is pregnant and needs help some with the girls and then there is my sweet April she is the baby and she really needs us to help her in making life decisions….you know they are just all my favorite, I guess its what ever child that has the need at the time you could say is my favorite because they all are such a important part of my life and such a blessing to me, there is not one favorite they all play a role in who I am and will be:) I loved that story and that is me!! nite all
Friday, October 23, 2009
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Jill is doing better. Here blood pressure is still on the high side, and the Dr's said that she really needs to sleep. At this point she is running on 2-1/2 days with only an hour or two of sleep per day. She is very tired and will probably feel up to having visitors later tomorrow. The Dr. said that we should be able to go home on Sunday.
A is doing well in the NICU. The Dr. said that she will be there for 7-10 days. She has to be able to breathe without any assistance and eat on her own before she can leave. Right now, she can't be moved from her station in the NICU and doesn't need visitors. As she improves, I will be able to take one adult at a time back (as long as they haven't been exposed to the swine flu this season) to see her.
Thanks for all of your support and prayers,
I will keep you updated on my blog:) and will post pics when I can:) all is ok here, hectic, pray form my Uncle Wesley's daughter candy, she is 32 and had a aneurysm, she is not brain dead and they are hanging on to hope:) Please pray for her...nite and hugs
Once we can and Jill can she will post pics:)
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
We are in a waiting process. Jill's blood pressure is still high, and she is just below the point where they would do a c-section. The baby's stats are great, it is Jill's vitals that have the Dr. concerned. They want her to deliver naturally if at all possible. They are giving her medication now to stabilize her and prepare her for labor, and the will begin the induction at 1:00 AM tomorrow morning. They will increase the "inducing" drugs at 7:00 AM and 1:00 PM tomorrow. The Dr expects for Jill to deliver sometime tomorrow afternoon if all goes as planned.
They have told us that A's lungs probably won't be fully developed, and that she will probably have to spend some time in the NICU, but also that they deliver babies that are more premature than her that are healthy.
I'll send another update tomorrow, or if anything changes.
Thanks for your prayers,
On the other hand, you know when I said I felt torn between work and Steve, well add Jill and Alex and A to that and Jill and A and Alex won:) I left Steve at hospital with his well wishes and Hannah came and was with him, Alicia went with me, guess God knew what He was doing in blessing me with so many children:) My Aunt Connie called and my Uncle's daughter who is 33 had Brian aneurysm and is not expected to live, they are in Tenn., it is just soooooo very sad, please pray for them. Steve did well, he is resting, has two bug cut open places in his back and he will need a week or so to heal, the Dr. said he has no vertebrae and needed to fused his lower vertebrae, when Steve gets to where he cannot stand the pain then the Dr. is ready to do it, in which I do not think Steve is, this pain deal in his back help with the pain. Well needless to say it has been a day.........going to be to get up early to meet miss A tomorrow:) remember us in your prayers......hugs and night!
Monday, October 19, 2009
Got up at the crack of dawn, in which I did not want to, but knew to get my day done, I would need too:) Went to store early to get things I needed to cook for my Southern Living Party I was having, I decided to prepare dinner since the party was at 6:30pm. After the store I was at the office to meet with a recruit and I was so impressed with her, I hope she will come to Mckimmey, she would for sure be a asset! Then had a Awards of Excellent meeting at the board office, which went well, the home to cook, made chicken and dumplings and a huge pot of veggie beef soup and corn bread, oh yes! A fudge cake:) Got the house straight and then headed to the chiropractor, he is really helping my neck and my headaches:) so I could not miss that appointment! Worked real estate in between and then it was time for my party, had a great time:) I forgot to take pics:( but did take some before the party. Max helped me decorate for fall, he got out some of my things and he did the table and I had two little straw people from some where, and he put them in a vase I had, I added some little wheat things and curly stick, but did not have the heart to change anything, he just loved what he did!! He said NANA YOUR HOUSE ROCKS!! he is just getting so much bigger and is so sweet, growing way too fast:( I am wore out and tomorrow have to have Steve at hospital for surgery on his back, remember the wire came loose to his implant for pain in his back, so we will be there, then home to recover.. I had forgot and have two agents coming to sales meeting tomorrow to check out the company…. I am just torn on what to do when I do things like that, but I need to be at the hospital so that is where I will be, I thought of taking Steve and leaving go to the meeting then coming back, but thought, would I want him to do that to me:))) and the answer is no:) Although Steve probably would not care, men are different:) Oh well life will go on, just can not be at both places at once:) going to bed….NITE!
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
I slept in till 9:00 am this morning, I was so tired from the retreat:) I realized a area of my heart that I did not know before this weekend, maybe why God had me go. I had decided after leaving our church we had been in since 1976 that I did not really need new friends and really just kept with my family and my friends I had, even said I do not want to make new friends. What I did not know is that was from hurt in the past, but as I was at the ladies retreat God showed me my heart and how I had shut that part off, even to really make a commitment to a church, I did not still have the hurt in my heart from what I experienced but I had harden my heart. God is so faithful in showing us these things and not leaving us the way we are:) I still feel vulnerable in making church friendships again, I have been safe in that for the past year, Journey Church it is a smaller church that is just forming, and Alex is one of the pastors, I knew everyone and it was not as threating, they went to Sunday night service so we have been going to Mercy Cross on Sunday morning, it is a big church with lots of loving people, the women at the retreat totally reached out and I had a choice to make was I going to let them in my life or not? At first I thought no, I do not want new friends, but then we had our alone time with God and he began showing me this, I then realized my heart was hard and ask God to change it, it sure feels better when we are vulnerable to him and others, just scary for me. You know I really think I am in for some neat friendships in both church’s:) It is exciting to let God do a new work in me and let go of what lies behind me:) Went to mercy’s cross this am and Journey church this pm, in between had a open house, which was slow:( and ate a huge bowl of homemade chili that I had craved for two days:)) Its been a good day, now I am curling up in bed and reading Waking the Dead, by John Eldredge, I have a feeling it is about heart issues too:) I can tell God is not finished with me yet:) Thank the Lord he loves me too much to leave me to my own ideals…………….hugs and nite!
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Today was a super day!! I had lunch with Jack and Alicia:) Jack had headaches all week so he will have a CT scan in the am, we think he is fine but his cousin on Bob’s side of the family had a brain tumor at the same age so it is a precaution CT scan. Again we think he is fine but just making sure:) He was so cute at lunch, he got all my quarters and actual own the little machine that you can pick up a stuffed animal and he did it!! Then back to the office for me, the office is peaceful and has a good spirit about it:) I am so thankful, I enjoyed being in the office today:) Got sorta caught up on paper work:) sold a house today and one yesterday:) so that is good and got a great listing Tuesday:) I am going to a women's retreat with Kay and Sherry Maxwell tomorrow, will be back sat night, we are going to camp paron with Mercy Cross, it has been years since I have gone on a women’s retreat, I am so excited about it and looking forward to it!! I will take some pics and share about it when I get home:) Thought I would post a pic of me and Olivia on Apache, I know Apache is not the prettiest horse but he fro sure is the sweetest:) I am not crazy about appaloosa's/ best get to bed….nite and hugs
Please take the time to watch this video, it will make you realize how much you need to love your self and how much God loves you just like you are:) It blest my day and I pray it will blest yours!! hugs
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Tuesday started off with sales meeting, in which was a hard meeting for me, some of what I could not share had to do with someone I worked with. Due to the fact it was affecting our whole company I was ask to address it in sales meeting, thus was very difficult for me, I thought I was not going to be able to breath, God was faithful to me and gave me His peace that surpasses all understanding and I was able to share my heart. It is still a difficult time because we had to let a agent go and I never like that. After the meeting I listed a neat home in Indian Hills on one and a half acre:) then it was planned that we take my dear friend Edwanda Ware, the lady who had cancer and I thought may not live and ask you to pray for, she is 77 and doing wonderful:) to the casino, there are four of us who go and take Edwanda about every 4-6 months, it had been a year and Ed was wanting to go:) so off we went, I was totally drained form my day, we got there about 4:30ish and checked in our rooms, then we all ate at 6:30, I was ready for bed, but went with the girlfriends to play some, then went to bed at 8:00, watched some TV and was going to read but fell asleep. Woke up about 11:30 and went down to see my girl friends, Ed had gone to bed, I then came to the room and we stayed up and talked till 3:00am!!! Of course Ed gets up early and she is old school , so even though I had do not disturb on the door and my on little card saying we are still asleep, Ed knocks real loud at the door for us to get up:) But like I said I was just thankful she was alive so I got up and then we ate and came home, it was so good being with my girl friends again, we had some catching up to do:) Glad to be home, have lots of work to catch up on. Have appointments tomorrow. Steve and I went to Mercy Cross group life tonight, it was really good time, talking on how to deal with difficult people:) We are going to church there on Sunday am and to Journey Church on Sunday night, I just miss church on Sunday am and Journey only meets Sunday night so guess I will just go to both:) anyway it was a good group with lots of bible teaching and things I needed to hear:) I am praying for the Lord just to renew me and my walk with Him:) Well I am so tired from having so much fun so I am on my way to bed:) hugs and NIte! and for those who will ask, NO I did not win any money, but I did not lose much either:)