Friday, January 29, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Had a full day, then went to boot camp, I was weighed tonight and gained 5 pds., when I was weighed before it was early morning, which I weigh less in the am, but I lost two inches in my waist and 1 and something in my biceps, gained in my calf and thigh and I think my butt stayed the same, I lost from the neck down to the butt:) Which is my fattest areas, so I was pleased. There is no doubt something wierd is with the weight, I have lost weight steadily since March of 2008, so I was not prepared to gain, was really trying to get 20 more pounds off by the end of February, glad I am not on biggest loser, I would of got sent home:) BUT I am going for another month, the coach said in six weeks I will start to see a big difference, but I can see a difference now, like tonight I put my sock on and I was in the kitchen and lifted my leg up and put the sock on my foot and stood on one leg, I did not think anything of it, but April said, oh my gosh! you just balanced on one foot! YEA!!!! I could of NEVER done that before, I was totally out of shape for real! But for real one day I will be fit and at what ever weight that is:) Boot camp really was hard tonight, it was 40 minutes on a lipitical machine, it is still cardio blast week, then weights on arms and lunges with weights. I then went to mothers, she is now sleeping all day till about 3:30 to 4:30 then getting up and eating breakfast, then starting her day, I told them I would bring dinner but when I got there at 6:30 she had ate her cereal cause it is breakfast to her, I was real concerned, Walt had tried to change a light bulb and got on a cedar chest at the end of her bed and fell, his wrist and hand was very swollen, and leg is sore, same side of the hip he broke, this was THREE days ago, now I have talked to mother several times and nothing was ever said, I checked it and will take him to the Dr. to be checked. I went to the store for milk, bread and toilet paper, in case it does get bad weather this weekend. I ask Walt how mother was doing and he said her memory was worse, I said there will be a time when she does not know you and he said she sometimes does not know me now, that she will ask him how long has he lived here and does he know how to get to the bedroom. Made me real sad but I knew she was much worse when I am with her or talk to her, I told Walt we are getting to the place that he can not do it all by him self and I may need to find a place for them to live with us, he seemed receptive to that, he said he did not want to live in a junky place, I said we wouldn’t, so I know he is considering that he will need to do that. Now my dilemma, I have no way of making Walt do anything, he needs to go to a attorney and do everything in a living trust so pray he will come around and know he needs help……this will take God doing a work. I am not sure how it will change our life with them living with us, It will have to be a home with their own space because they both smoke:( but they are not ready for a nursing home and I can not do that anyway, I guess its not in the cards that Steve and I ever live alone:) Good thing I am a people person and roll with the punches! If anyone has experience with Alzheimer's and how to handle all this feel free to give me advice…… hugs and nite!
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Monday, January 25, 2010
Linda Lowe Apple January 25 at 7:38am Reply
“It isn't what you have, or who you are, or where you are, or what you are doing that makes you happy or unhappy. It is what you think about.” ~ Dale CarnegieMy pastor, Steve Dixon, told us about a ski instructor who advised that when you are skiing to focus on where you want to go, not the obstruction in your path. For instance, if there are two trees in front of you with room to go between them, then focus on that space, NOT the trees. Why? Your brain will take you to the place of your focus. And in this case it will take you to a place you do not want to go—kissing a tree. I know a person whose mind is fixated on revenge. This person’s quality of life is on steady decline and the poor soul is losing everything in an effort to “get even.” This mind-set is eating at this person’s sanity.There is a proverb that says, “For as a man thinks in his heart, so is he.” What thoughts fill your mind? Are they focused on the obstructions in your path? Are they taking them where you want to go? If not, retrain it to think on good things. Good things about life, people, hope, dreams, and of course, yourself. This may be an exercise in faith. But as you know, exercise produces healthy bodies and in this case, a healthy mind and a happy life.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Sean and Anna
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
I have to wonder what makes a person seriously want to give up on life and take their life? I have been down and out and at one time did not care if I lived or died, but it was never a option to take my life in my hands and kill my self. There has to be a deep, deep place of depression for someone to take their life. I think it is a very selfish person that will do this, but then I think they are not in their right mind to think it through and make the right decision……so how does one get so far gone in the pits of despair that they kill them self? It seems they cannot not fathom the future, that their thinking is abstract for today only, but they are adults and should be able to think past today, I understand teen agers because their brain processes that way but in adult hood you should be able to process. When I worked at Living Hope this was my favorite kind of patient, because there is always hope, most were hopeless and were mad they did not die, angry at life, in time we were able to help them regroup and have a reason to live and some new coping skills. Then I have thought it is the person’s way to stay in control of what happens to them, they use this as a method to keep control over their loved ones and friends, if you do not do what I say, I will kill my self, that always makes me angry to see this and is so unfair to the family, I say…..no one can be responsible for that person’s life, if they kill them self that is their decision and the family has to set a boundary and live by it, knowing the out come could be death for their love one, but you cannot be trapped by this type behavior. No one can make someone take their life by their actions. This decision is made by he person who takes their life and they can choose not to. Happiness is a choice for all of us, we all have hard times and times of rejection BUT we choose to over come it, when someone can not choose that then they are sick and need of some help. As you can tell I am processing my thought in writing, not knowing for sure if this is right or wrong just my thoughts. I have a friend who purposely over dosed, I ask you to pray for her, it is a miracle she is alive, she was serious and took enough meds to be dead, she does not want to live, this friend is a happy person with some family problems but a beautiful woman and a believer in the Lord, she has had her share if not more, of problems, some she brings on her self, like we all do, she has a decision to make choose life or choose death, no one can make it for her and no one can make her die, if she chooses death it is her choice, one little problem, it is not time apparently for her to go home and until it is she will just harm her self and continue to live a miserable life, God said there is a time to die and a time to live, it is HIS timing not ours, so I have seen where the person makes their life a life of a vegetable and continues to live till God says its time. I pray this does not happen with my friend, please keep her in your prayers. Pray her family will have the strength to stand up against this control and manipulation by her, and be able to release her to the Lord so He can do HIs work in her and show her a reason to live……tks for listening to me express my self….Hugs
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Decorating............our theme is "Over The Top"
My friend is still doing better, pray for her, she still has major depression and her life situation is no different, pray she finds a reason to live. hugs and nite!
Monday, January 18, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Today has been a very restful peaceful day. I got in the bed with Steve yesterday about 5ish, we watched football and I played on face book, then got sleepy and went to sleep, I woke up at 9:30pm and then we both went to bed, woke up at 4:30 and went back to sleep till 8ish. I could not believe it, my back was stiff from being in the bed so long. I could of gone back to sleep but needed to get up and take care of Steve:) He took a shower and that did him in, I made chicken spaghetti and salad and great northern beans for supper, I realize the beans do not go with the meal but I was hungry for them:) Kay and Colin came by after church and ate lunch with us and visited, we enjoyed them coming by to visit:) Alex and Jill came by with my sweet Amelia, I loved seeing them, I do not see them as much, they live across town. Sean came in on his way home form hunting, they saw a lot of deer and got one. Mark came in and sat with Steve and visited, Hannah has been sick so she stayed away. I did get a offer accepted today, there were three offers on the property and we got my offer worked out:) YEA!! I really need business, I am trying not to worry, but it is scary since I need my income to pay bills:) trying to trust in the Lord that He knows what I need when I need it:) He has always been faithful! Today was nice, I sat in my rocking chair on the front porch and rocked some today:) I have boot camp early tomorrow so I am going to bed soon, I dread getting up so early and going……..but keep telling my self you have to go! hugs and nite
Friday, January 15, 2010
It is wonderful to be home:) took a nap with Steve and felt much better:) he has his remote and thought he would watch ball games, but he thought it was Saturday:) Jared and his family came over, and Hannah and Alicia and April helped me get him in a settled:) Max came over and just loved on him and told him he missed him, he and Max are two peas in a pod:) Max will come and lay in bed with him and watch a movie tomorrow. I got him a juicy hamburger for lunch and then fixed him a good dinner:) Poppy seed chicken, green beans and Mac and cheese, rolls, fresh fruit and tea, what more can a man want? never mind do not answer that!! Can’t wait to sleep in my own bed:) NITE
Basket of goodies, our company is like family, they always take care of the serious thing such as chocolate!!
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Oh my gosh, I slept 10 straight hours last night, I got home and went to bed and woke up at eight! I decided not to set the alarm for boot camp, if I woke up then I would go and if not I would go to the night class……it is amazing what sleep can do for you. Steve usually wakes up three to four times a night, most of the time it wakes me up to, with him not there I did not wake up once! He usually wakes up due to pain, so with this surgery he will not be in that pain and maybe he will sleep better! That would be nice, I have thought of getting two beds or sleep in different rooms but can not do that, I miss him if he is not there:) He is doing as good as to be expected, they got him up twice today and had him walk with a walker, the Dr. said he did not have disc or what ever is in between disc, can’t think right now, on the L 2 and 3 and he had to put a plate and screws and rods in, his bleeding has slowed down, thank the Lord and thank you for praying, he has pain but it is not where he can not get relief form it, the pain meds help him, he has really been out of it tonight so they may cut some of it back. Ok, when it came time for boot camp, I really did not know how I would do it, I was still sore and I just did not feel like I had the stamina to do it, BUT I went, I was dragging and almost just told her I could not do it and left BUT I stayed and did it, it bout killed me, I feel better afterwards because it stretches me all out, of course now I am achy and sore, my legs burned so bad, but I kept on. When I got in the car I was ready to cry, I was so thankful I was able to do it, God must have heard and answered our prayers, nothing in me thought I could or wanted to, I just knew I had made to commitment and am trusting that this will help me, if it does not kill me first:) when I was jogging I started counting that got my mind off how bad my legs hurt and helped, if anyone knows any tricks to help you get through it please tell me:) I am at the hospital for the night, April was going to stay but she has to work tomorrow so I am staying, hope fully I will get some sleep:) Jenn went to the baby Dr. and miss Mika has dropped:) Jenn is having contractions off and on so I am not sure she will wait till Feb 4th to come, but I hope she will wait till I get Steve home:) All is well in this house hold hope it is in yours:) hugs and nite!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Alicia and I this morning, both trying to work as we wait:) Steve’s surgery went well, Dr. Jordan said his back is the worst mess, surgery took 3.5 hours and recovery 2.5 hrs., for some reason Steve’s blood has not clotted right, he is still bleeding but it has slowed down:) Blood makes me feel light headed so it needs to quit:) The CNA came in and I told him that bulb deal was full and for some reason he picked it up, no gloves and pulled the tube out and blood went all over him and Steve, bout lost it, good thing Alicia was her she got it taken care of and told the CNA not to touch Steve with out sanitizing and gloves, the CNA was upset cause he got Steve’s blood all over his hands and I am sure he is worried about it. I assured him that Steve does not have nay diseases. We put notes on the door and in the room to sanitize and wear gloves and any visitors sanitize their hands before seeing Steve no more staff for him, you may not remember he almost died in 1986 from it, in the hospital a month and home on IV for another month or so, then a few years ago he got it when he had his neck stimulator put in and was in hospital for almost two weeks, had surgery twice while there for it. Steve has never had this major of a surgery, he is doing well and trying to rest, the pain pump helps. His room is awesome:) This is the sitting area, they are separate, his part, where his bed goes, his part has a recliner and chair, then the suite part has a love seat that makes a bed and two chairs and TV, so you can watch it without disturbing him:) Very nice hospital owned by Drs., not sure if I will get to go to boot camp tonight or night, Sean will not get here till 6:30, the last one is 7:00 so i will see what to do when I know what time he gets here, he will stay with Steve, this is a very quiet hospital:))) Since we will be here a week I am thankful the room has lots of space:))) Thank you for all your prayers they are being heard! Please pray tomorrow for a dear friend of mine, they will be having prostate surgery for cancer, it is very early stages. HUGS and NITE!!
I realized at boot camp today that I forgot how to skip!! I can not skip, I sorta hop, I ad Hannah skip to help me and Alicia, in which Alicia could not quit laughing at the way I try to skip….I for sure have some work to do on it, I am just not very coordinated. We had a good work out today. I am not sore anymore and have some energy, I actually enjoy it more. At 4:30 today I have to get up and go the the Maumelle surgery center where Steve will have surgery on his L4,5,6. He has no disc and they will fuse them, this is a major surgery and he will being he hospital for a few days, I have all prepared and ready for him at home, for me to, I went to the store Sat. and bought lots of groceries so I can cook him some good meals. The house is clean and laundry is done. It is never easy juggling work but that is what I will need to do:) Will do boot camp tomorrow night and Sean will stay with Steve. Pray for Alex he is real sick with his stomach, the Dr. thinks it is the flu or a parasite……hum……I think it has been going on too long for the flu! Since last Wed., he is getting better but has bad stomach cramping. Well got to get to sleep, got to get up in four hours:((( hugs and nite!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
My sweet, sweet, sweet, Amelia Joy Averitt
me and Amelia
Saturday, January 9, 2010
April's ring! sry pics are blurry, I need to do something with my camera:(
Seth and April
April looking at her ring. Seth putting it on her finger
after he ask her to marry him
Seth proposing to April
Seth stating he has something to say..........April has no ideal
Seth trying to share, he started crying
Friday, January 8, 2010
I have a major secret I will be sharing next week with you, you will defiantly have a opinion about it! Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you will get:) Going to bed, real late!! Hugs and nite
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Today I got a new listing in Parkhill, it is such a neat home, its older and the owner has it looking so good, so if your looking for a older classic home with all the work done call me:) I am already in bed, finishing up my real estate work and going to bed, have to be up early as you know:) HUGS AND NITE!!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Had a long day at the office, sales meeting and property tour, then two meetings, then home and I am for sure ready for bed! HUGS and Night!
Monday, January 4, 2010
I made appointments to show two buyers this week homes so that is exciting, I talked to sellers today to keep them updated and informed on the market and the sell process of their homes, then came home:) Before all that I went to Jenn's to watch the girls while she went to her Drs. appointment, only to find out they were closed:((( she goes again in the am, her Nanny is coming to keep them tomorrow, I know her Nanny will love spending the night with them.
Have a meeting tonight at 6:30 with Alicia for us to talk about our work goals and get on the same page with the agents in helping them keep theirs. Can you tell I am ready to go to work??? Played long enough, I am ready to list and sell and make some money, I am broke and do not like being broke:) That's the problem with commission sales. Wish I was the lottery winner, would that not be something!! Can not even image what they are thinking right now.....oh how nice that would be! A instant multi millionaire! The power ball lottery in Arkansas is new and it was 25 million for all those who do not live here, it goes to the higher education for Arkansas students, it was bought at a Mayflower Arkansas store by a local person, the person has not come forth yet, I would be down there asap then meet with attorney's to figure it all out:) If we are going to dream we might as well dream BIG!! Hang onto your dreams and think about your goals for 2010, remember the best made plans need to be written out so you can attain them!! HUGS and NITE!
Sunday, January 3, 2010
I am really nervous about Boot Camp, I think I may need to re watch biggest loser for my inspiration! Guess tomorrow comes earl;y and then I will know what I will be doing:) I want my coach to hold me accountable, I keep telling my self its only four weeks of being out so early, but I have no ideal what I was thinking when I decided to do this in the middle of winter!! I just want to get the rest of this weight off and not be so out of shape! I have some work to do to build up some mussel power.
best get to bed.....I will let you know how it goes.......say a prayer for me not to be nervous or intimated........I hate to even think of the things I can not do, I am sooooooo out of shape. BUT that is changing!! hugs and night
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Amelia's frist work of art:)
Friday, January 1, 2010
Laila.....................is she not so cute!