Friday, August 5, 2016

August 2016.......Hot and Humid, where has this year gone?

It is so hard to believe this is August!  Last post was May, a lot has happened since then, Steve has had a hip replacement surgery, Knee replacement and Rotator cup surgery, he still needs every bit of the on other side of his body. But he has had all he can take for this year. It is hard to understand how his body can be so broke down where his bones are involved. He is a trooper and keeps on going, but it has been a ruff year for him.  I have had some lung issues, my parents smoked in the home and when I wake up I sound like a smoker, I had gotten real sick and they found another nodule on my lungs, for some reason I am aspirating back into my lungs so I am in the process of going through test for that. parents do not smoke around your children, here are pics of my lungs and I have never smoked.  This is my lungs, never smoked, just breathed 2nd hand smoke.
 Healthy Lung xray
 Side view, all the white is stria marks.....not a good thing in your lungs

Really has made me not feel very good, but you just keep on keeping on. Right when I was better, we went to Van Buren to keep the McGill Babies, The day we left which was this last Saturday we had just got home and Olivia fell on the trampoline and broker her femur

She was brought to ACH by Ambulance, she was in excruciating pain, very traumatic for her to get it set, it almost made me faint to watch her go through that. She had surgery Sunday and home Monday, they left my home today to go back to Van Buren I remember when my nephew had broken his, he had a external fixater,  we so prayed she would not have to have that, and she did not, plate and screws, will be removed after six months.  She is doing so much better, but keep them in your prayers.  We went with Alicia and Bob to Orange Beach, where Daniel Williams ask Alexandria to marry him!

Such a sweet time, I am so thankful they included us in that special time. We love Daniel! As of now June 2017.  Our sweet Anna Averitt has lived with us since March, it has been different having a teen  in our home, she is fun and loves the Lord, pray for her, her desire is to live in her own home and have her own bedroom:)   Her plan was to live with Sean, he had found a home but it failed the inspection, now he has gotten very sick and needs your prayers, he needs surgery asap, trying to get insurance so he can get it. As of today he can not work, just taking one day at a time. Sean lives with Jimmy Jr. my nephew who lost both his legs, they are a hoot together, but both are ready to have their on homes and be well. Anna just needs to be kept in your prayers, she as come a long way in these few months.
But still needs some answered prayers. We have enjoyed her but desire her to be with her parents. I am very strick she says:)  For the next few weeks I will need to focus on the court case with my sister so I will be ready to explain any question's she has for me, we go to court August 24. It breaks my heart to even think we are in this mess. there is a song that keeps coming to my mind, Even if the healing doesn't come, and life falls a part, and dreams still undone, Your are God, You are Good, Forever faithful one, Even if the healing doesn't come. I have been praying for here on this earth to have my sister and her family back in my families life, to let all hurt and pain and miss trust go, but with this song so heavy on my heart, I am not sure it will happen this side of Heaven. I sure desire it to. We should do a disposition soon before the court, so please pray for both of us. Neither of our health is up to par right now, So I pray neither of us get sick from all the stress of it.  I love my sister and her family and I believe she loves mine, we have just deeply hurt each other. Where there are many words there is division:( SO please keep Kay and I in  your prayers.
Be glad when this is over though, the truth will be told and hope she will see it and understand it along with her family. My sweet mother
would be so upset if she knew all that has been said and that this was happening ,  Life will go on, I just pray with resolve. I sure do miss her sweet face!  Real estate is busy,
God is blessing my business even with all that is going on! I thank Him for it. Jared and Jenn and the girls moved to Oklahoma City in June:( near Alex and Jill and their girls, April and Seth leave in the morning to move to Iowa to be near his family, Seth got a job there, he had lost his job here, I have strong mixed feeling on that move, but they are married and grown and all I can do us pray for God to bring them to what is the hope of their calling in Christ Jesus my Lord. I am just praying against getting a migraine from all the stress. I have 36 listings which mean I have a lot of bosses who are not concerned about my home life but need their homes and land sold, so its put on a happy face and do what I was created to do and that is sell Real Estate, which I do love. I have to keep focused on my career, if I can not work I do not get paid:)  I think this brings you up to date on my family, Alicia and Bob will have two at ASU this year,
leaves Jack at home, Sean is good but sick, he has Cole a lot and Anna, but his desire is to find something he  can do in a line of work that he will physically be able to maintain in. So pray for him too.  All in all we are a very blessed family and very thankful family. Just doing life together with God in charge!

Monday, May 2, 2016

May 2016, hard to believe...GRIEF

I just can not believe how the time has flown by, my Father past away Nov.10th 1973, Walt my step father past away May 3rd, 2010, which began some very changing times in my life, I became the primary care giver to my mother, who was in a battle with Alzheimer's. My life changed as I knew it. My mother then past away in Sept. of 2012.  It is just hard to believe 6 years have gone by since Walt's death.  So many things have happened in these past six years.  I am ever so grateful for all my wonderful memories, they far out weigh the hard ones.

I read this on grief, best way to describe grief, it is like a wave and comes when you least expect it.  I wanted to share it with you, in hopes if your grieving, you too can find hope and healing to keep moving forward.  Time will never heal the void but it does get easier.  All is going well with me and my family, always trails and problems to work through but we also get through them one day at a time  with God's grace.  Hugs to all

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Feburary Blog

I have not been very good at blogging, you have to have the right mind frame, although I usually just write what comes to my mind:) January ended better, Steve had knee replacement surgery three weeks ago today, he is doing great, he has lost weight
and that has made it easier on him. Stress wise I am much better, still have a problem sometimes with my throat, but much better. WHY?

Because I have truly let go of things, when my babies have a problem I listen but do not fix it, when I do not think I can do it, I say no, that sounds simple but I can pulled into more things, on my own doing. This morning I have some time to be home and pray and reflect, which I am thankful for.  My Alexandria leaves for Spain today, will be home July 7th. at 6:30pm.:) We went last night to Jonesboro to watch her dance as a previous title holder of Miss ASU, she is just so talented!
 She is excited about her study there, we are trusting God in all this with her, it will be hard and we will for sure miss her. All my grands are such a blessing, today is Cole's Seventh birthday!
They just grow up way to fast!

Steve and I are doing well, ready for a beach trip for our Anniversary 44 years! Still in love, we do enjoy each other, that helps:) Speaking of marriage, we still go to marriage seminars and get counsel when needed, you have to work everyday at your marriage for it to last and be forgiving of each other's faults.

Today is also the day my sweet Tiffany Menize went to Heaven, sure do miss her, and her voice and her smile. Keep her mom, Connie and children Gavin and Menzie and Mawmaw in your prayers, it is a hard day. Talked to Connie this morning and prayed for her.

The Real Estate market is busy here, putting in some long hours, ready for a snow day, well maybe! Reports
state this will be a major year for real estate, so I am ready! Guess I need to get to work but wanted to blog a bit, all is well in our household, I pray it is in yours! By the way all is well does not mean we are always happy, stress free, pain free, BUT we know it is well with our soul because we know who owns our soul!! Hugs

Monday, January 4, 2016

WOW 2016!

As I work on my goals and hearing the Lord on what He desires for my life I am astonished at the fact I tried to set goals without even thinking of praying for His wisdom and guidance!  I pray all the time, but I was shown how I also run out on my own all the time.  A good reminder to seek God in everything I do.

Well I was at a standstill in doing my 2016 goals, when in the shower yesterday I realized why, I had my thoughts but forgot to get God's plans for 2016:) The Bible is very clear, He knows the plans for me, so with me being with Him today I am now working on and setting my goals for 2016, it is amazing how I can forget HE IS IN CONTROL! I will have spiritual, physical, family and work goals for 2016, then I will send them to my accountable partners. I believe 2016 will be a year of Jubilee for me! Jeremiah 29:11 My 2016 Verse Love 7-14! The year of Peace and Reconciliation

I love having quiet home and peaceful presence of the Lord nudging me to come to Him and find His will for me, I am not a religious person but a very dependent person on Jesus, I do not like rules and honestly feel they are to be broken, because there is always grace,  BUT some RULES remain no matter what I think, I have learned that the hard way several times in 2015.

Last year, funny to call it that:0 was a hard year for me, I had started it our in 2014 of December with some real problems, that problem turned out to be a very positive thing in my life and helped me change for the better.  It was a year of real stress, I had heart problems, had knots so bad in my neck that my throat felt like I had strep throat, even my aorta vein was stressed, I had gone to ENT knowing I had a major throat problem, after going to my Primary care physician and he not knowing what was wrong after a lot of test, the ENT said , it was stress....I said you mean to tell me my throat is raw from stress, he said your throat is not raw but you have your neck so tight it is affecting you as if it were raw, also the lump in my Thyroid was stress, which made me not be able to breath or swallow right. My low heart rate and blood pressure was stress, you would think it would of been high, but no, way too low, which takes all your energy away. Plus my back was out and I had hemorrhoids, which I had not had since giving birth, they are a real pain in the you know where.  I have been to see more  Drs. in 2015 then any year of my life.  I was so mad, I had tried to give everything to the Lord and know He is in control but my body still held onto the stress.   

This was a major wake up call for me, I could not live this way, at church that Sunday God had Pastor Kevin pray over us, I got on my knees and was fighting back that ugly cry, BUT Pastor Kevin kept praying until God could break through my pride, it was one long ugly cry but it felt so good to let it all out and leave it with the Lord.  Pride gets in the way of everything. God gives grace to the humble.

You know as a mother of Six, with all having spouses and 14 living Grand's, Steve had major hip surgery and will have knee replacement this Jan. 20th. My lawsuit with my sister, whom I miss and love dearly, many other battles last year, I had come to the place of thinking I may not make it through all this, BUT God knew me and He knew what it took to bring me to a place of brokenness.  This has been a year of tears for me, which are cleansing.

2016 starts out broken but in a good way, I still have the same battles, although some have been resolved, still have six children and the grand's  and one less spouse, Sean and Sarah will be divorced tomorrow. My mawmaw told me that you can only do what you can do, if you can not do anything about something then let it go, there is nothing you can do but pray and that is what I pray I hang onto for the rest of my life, Mawmaw has been through a lot and she is strong in her faith and a strong woman, I am praying I let it go....I was told if my name is not in the first three words then it is not my problem.  I am the type person who likes to please and have peace with everyone but that is not always possible and I have to learn to live in the midst of this world.  This year I am praying I will be sensitive of when to act or just pray:)

I am excited about my work, I have some direction for it, I am working my business on referrals, so if you know of anyone ,any where in the WORLD moving please give them my phone number or have me call them!!  Business is good, and should be a good 2016. For the first time ever I am not in the top five of our company, which stings, I am number six, been in real estate since 1986 and a member of the Million Dollar club and now called the Awards of Excellence for 20 straight years, I am learning, which is hard for me, I do not have to be at the top, I just need to be where God has me:) I am so proud of Alicia she in number two and made the highest level award this year in Real Estate!

In my family I am letting each solve their own problems, and I am here for listening and prayer and unconditional love:)

In my marriage, I am married to my best friend and we will work on our marriage daily.

In my church, I will ask God where to give of my self and my time and money, pray for my Pastor.

In my physical, I am eating healthier and getting the rest of my weight off this year,  being more physically active:)

I am giving it all to the Lord and I know He will fight my battles for me, and that I can trust him with all HIS children!  So hello 2016!