To blog or not to blog?????????

Sitting here tonight, I have the time to blog but not sure I want to blog, so I thought I would start and just free write and see what I find in my mind to blog about:)

Hummmmmmmmmmmmmmm, well this has been a real busy week, several offers, closings. Really over whelming for me at times, I have Adult ADD, which I can normally work with, but this week on Thursday I could not get my mind to work, I had written a HUD Repo offer Jan 10th, it was accepted and you only have 48 hours to overnight all the paper work to HUD, I did not realize that my buyer had won the bid until I only had 24 hours to get my paper work done:((( So I go in over load in my mind, scrambling, my brain shuts down and I can not remember how to do the contracts, or how to go to the web site and get them down loaded, this is for real, I almost start to cry because I am trying so hard to do it and I have nothing to draw from..........then a agent comes in my office to tell me what happened to him on a real estate deal, I get so mad at what another agent has done to him, he is a new agent, I quit what I am doing on the HUD and work out his deal with another companies broker, I can not stand it when a agent bulldogs a new agent or just flat takes their business away, so unethical!  Yep, I got all railed up, talked to Byron got him all railed up, but getting our agent some of the commission when it was all said and done, will still have meeting with  the other companies broker to settle what happened or we will take them to arbitration.  So in saying all that, when I went back to work on my HUD offer I totally knew how to do it????? In explaining ADD, its like you get frustrated and when you do, you can not recall what you need to know to do something, I remember when I was getting tutored for my Broker test, the teacher who taught learning disabled children was doing Math with me, we just worked a problem, but I could not work it again, then I feel myself get anxious inside, then I can not even tell you what I am trying to figure out.......it is so very frustrating.  Once I got that HUD deal done, I told Steve I need to stop, I am through for the day, and I was mentally.  He made light of it, but it is not funny to me, it is something that is hard for me to understand, when I can do so many things, then when my brain goes into over load, it will not work.  If I go into a room that has everything messed up, I will not know how to start, it is so hard, I talk my self through it, one step at a time.  On the other hand, I can do so many things at once, I can eat, be on phone, be emailing, listening to others conversations, all at the same time:) My brain goes very fast, I can think of a answer to a problem before you get the problem out, I can think of a solution to something immediately, I have more energy then most my age and can get so much done in one day, so ADD is not all bad :) But I always have to make a list, put it in priority for my day so I will stay on task, then when I wonder off task, I will recognize it:) So guess this blog will be on ADD!  When you can not get your brain to focus you feel real dumb, you can not explain it to someone else to get their help because you can not figure it out your self to explain it. I realize a lot of these feelings are feelings I had in school growing up, instead of fight through it, I just thought I was dumb, and could not learn:((( I have been tested when Dr. Bryles was living and I worked at Living Hope Institute, on the testing ( TOVA) I failed, after taking 5 milligrams of Ritalin I did it perfect, there is a little flap in your brain, that is to go down on certain activities, ADD people the flap does not work correctly, the medicine makes it work, this is what he said, probably used medical terms:) when it does not flap back then you will try harder to think the answer or do something and you can't. So that helped me understand me, although I could not take the medicine daily due to blood pressure problems, it helped me tremendously when I did, like night and day difference in my train of thought, my thoughts stayed on track, not jumping from one thing to the next.  I have learned to recognize my thought pattern and try to stay focused, does not always work:(   SO that was a very hard day for me on Thursday even though it was very productive!  Today I thought I have worked the last four days 9 plus hour days and I am tired, I will got most of my Real Estate done early and came home this afternoon and had boiled shrimp, crawlfish,

Gumbo

Need a manicure, just a little messy:)

YUM!

 

 gumbo that a place fixed here, Steve and I ate and watched movies, it is now 11:30pm, he has gone to bed, the house is quiet and I am ready for bed:)  Amelia is coming over tomorrow, Jill and Sydney are sick, Peyton is spending the night so she will be excited that Amelia is too! Say a prayer for Alex and Jill, they have all been sick and poor Jill is sick now too:(  Tomorrow is Mika's birthday too:)
I still cannot believe how busy this Real Estate market is, I am ever so thankful, but also thankful for a slower day today.  I have about ate my self sick. but sure enjoyed my night.....hope you had a good night too! Now it's bedtime.....nite!