Sunday

 

pic of me and Kay at women’s retreat 

Pic of Sherry praying:) a happy prayer:) I did not know her eyes were closed:)

I slept in till 9:00 am this morning, I was so tired from the retreat:) I realized a area of my heart that I did not know before this weekend, maybe why God had me go.  I had decided after leaving our church we had been in since 1976 that I did not really need new friends and really just kept with my family and my friends I had, even said I do not want to make new friends.  What I did not know is that was from hurt in the past, but as I was at the ladies retreat God showed me my heart and how I had shut that part off, even to really make a commitment to a church, I did not still have the hurt in my heart from what I experienced but I had harden my heart.  God is so faithful in showing us these things and not leaving us the way we are:)  I still feel vulnerable in making church friendships again, I have been safe in that for the past year, Journey Church it is a smaller church that is just forming, and Alex is one of the pastors, I knew everyone and it was not as threating, they went to Sunday night service so we have been going to Mercy Cross on Sunday morning, it is a big church with lots of loving people, the women at the retreat totally reached out and I had a choice to make was I going to let them in my life or not?  At first I thought no, I do not want new friends, but then we had our alone time with God and he began showing me this, I then realized my heart was hard and ask God to change it, it sure feels better when we are vulnerable to him and others, just scary for me. You know I really think I am in for some neat friendships in both church’s:) It is exciting to let God do a new work in me and let go of what lies behind me:)  Went to mercy’s cross this am and Journey church this pm, in between had a open house, which was slow:( and ate a huge bowl of homemade chili that I had craved for two days:))  Its been a good day, now I am curling up in bed and reading  Waking the Dead, by John Eldredge, I have a feeling it is about heart issues too:) I can tell God is not finished with me yet:) Thank the Lord he loves me too much to leave me to my own ideals…………….hugs and nite!

Womens Retreat:)

Friday after a full day of work, I left with Sherry Maxwell to go to camp Paron for Mercy Cross Church women's retreat, I was nervous about it because I would not know anyone there, except for my sister and Jenifer Duke. You would not think ,if you know me that I would be nervous about meeting new people, but I was out of my comfort zone, since I knew hardly no one, of course I had Sherry with me when we got there and this precious lady named Michelle came up to me and told me she already had me a bed and Sherry a bed by my sister:) We were in the night owls bunk house:) so that means everyone stays up all night! It did not take long for me to get comfortable and feel right at home with the ladies, they were all so friendly and help you fit in:) I did not get much sleep, but woke early:( and went down the to activities room. We had some time to walk the land and just be quiet with the Lord, there was this stream of water running down a brook, a leaf came down the stream, floating so cautiously and gently, it floated thru the running crystal clear water and floated right past a big rock, the actual rock I stepped on to cross the creek, I watched the leaf just float in the stream, it was a pretty fall leaf with some red color to it, then I saw the rock and it had a wad of leafs bunched up against it, they were just wadded up against the rock, stuck, I thought of the leaf that just floated by so free and went way down the stream, then thought of the leafs stuck on the rock, I felt the Lord ask me would those leafs float away down the stream? I said yes, but it will take some hard rainfalls and winds to get them to move, but with enough rain and storms and wind they will float down the stream, it will not be peaceful and it will be in ruff waters BUT it will still stay in the stream and get carried down stream as the other leaf.........it spoke to me in my life, sometimes when we hold onto to things it makes our life full of storms and ruff waters, God is faithful to keep us in His stream, but would it no be much easier if we just submitted to Him and trusted Him so we could float freely? Or do we like the storms? As for me, I much rather have the peace! but so many times choose to do it my way and end up stuck on the rock and forced downstream:( I pray God changes that in me and I will always trust Him to take care of me and my family and fiends:) hugs and nite!

Thursday and loving it!

Today was a super day!!  I had lunch with Jack and Alicia:) Jack had headaches all week so he will have a CT scan in the am, we think he is fine but his cousin on Bob’s side of the family had a brain tumor at the same age so it is a precaution CT scan. Again we think he is fine but just making sure:) He was so cute at lunch, he got all my quarters and actual own the little machine that you can pick up a stuffed animal and he did it!! Then back to the office for me, the office is peaceful and has a good spirit about it:) I am so thankful, I enjoyed being in the office today:) Got sorta caught up on paper work:) sold a house today and one yesterday:) so that is good and got a great listing Tuesday:)  I am going to a women's retreat with Kay and Sherry Maxwell tomorrow, will be back sat night, we are going to camp paron with Mercy Cross, it has been years since I have gone on a women’s retreat, I am so excited about it and looking forward to it!! I will take some pics and share  about it when I get home:) Thought I would post a pic of me and Olivia on Apache, I know Apache is not the prettiest horse but he fro  sure is the sweetest:) I am not crazy about appaloosa's/ best get to bed….nite and hugs

this is a owl that April saw and Sarah took a pic of in the hunting woods at Ozone:)

I love me, do you love you?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0pxBay2r2SI

Please take the time to watch this video, it will make you realize how much you need to love your self and how much God loves you just like you are:) It blest my day and I pray it will blest yours!! hugs

fun with friends

Tuesday started off with sales meeting, in which was a hard meeting for me, some of what I could not share had to do with someone I worked with.  Due to the fact it was affecting our whole company I was ask to address it in sales meeting, thus was very difficult for me, I thought I was not going to be able to breath, God was faithful to me and gave me His peace that surpasses all understanding and I was able to share my heart.  It is still a difficult time because we had to let a agent go and I never like that. After the meeting I listed a neat home in Indian Hills on one and a half acre:) then it was planned that we take my dear friend Edwanda Ware, the lady who had cancer and I thought may not live and ask you to pray for, she is 77 and doing wonderful:) to the casino, there are four of us who go and take Edwanda about every 4-6 months, it had been a year and Ed was wanting to go:) so off we went, I was totally drained form my day, we got there about 4:30ish and checked in our rooms, then we all ate at 6:30, I was ready for bed, but went with the girlfriends to play some, then went to bed at 8:00, watched some TV and was going to read but fell asleep.  Woke up about 11:30 and went down to see my girl friends, Ed had gone to bed, I then came to the room and we stayed up and talked till 3:00am!!! Of course Ed gets up early and she is old school , so even though I had do not disturb on the door and my on little card saying we are still asleep, Ed knocks real loud at the door for us to get up:) But like I said I was just thankful she was alive so I got up and then we ate and came home, it was so good being with my girl friends again, we had some catching up to do:) Glad to be home, have lots of work to catch up on.  Have appointments tomorrow.  Steve and I went to Mercy Cross group life tonight, it was really good time, talking on how to deal with difficult people:)  We are going to church there on Sunday am and to Journey Church on Sunday night, I just miss church on Sunday am and Journey only meets Sunday night so guess I will just go to both:) anyway it was a good group with lots of bible teaching and things I needed to hear:) I am praying for the Lord just to renew me and my walk with Him:)  Well I am so tired from having so much fun so I am on my way to bed:) hugs and NIte! and for those who will ask, NO I did not win any money, but I did not lose much either:)

which pic?

ok which pic should I use for profile pic on here:) not much to say today, I have a lot going on and will share it all Wednesday. Work is so busy and my schedule is crazy, but I love it and love the cooler weather, getting my fall things out but I want to get my Christmas out:) it my peek out in November:) hugs and nite

Sunday and JILLIN!!

This is my sweet Jill, all pregnant and very swollen, trying to rest at a Birthday party for her brother's daughter, I just loved the pic, it such a PG pic!!! We are so blest!

This is Jill's daddy, JL, Daddy's shoulder's are always there for us:) I will blog more later, hope you enjoyed seeing my Jill:) hugs and nite