My Valentine

 My office is the one with light on:)

You know as I came to work today, very early so I could get finished by about 1:00 ish, I was thinking how excited, or as Cole says pcited, that Steve and I are going away for two days, I will have alone time with just him, it made me think of marriage, you know your spouse is the one who gets the left overs of your day, and that is called life.  I have through the years tried to make him number one all day long but it never worked because of children who had to be number one, or work who had to be number one or mother who had to be number one that day.  So our spouse gets our left overs, sometime we do not even have left overs.  Just think I bring you lunch, but I ate it first and bring you left overs....ugh....a relationship can not live on left overs all the time:)

In saying that I will explain, when you have children, as a mother they will take everything out of you some days, your hubby comes home and you need attention, you have nothing to give, then some days if you work, you have work that takes it out of you, when you get home, you still have your home to clean, laundry, dinner, etc, you have nothing to give.  SOOOOO I decided to have 48 hours alone with my Valentine this year, we will not discuss children, grand babies, work, family, nothing but focus on us and having fun together, time for holding hands, pats on the bottom:) dinner out with our eyes gazing into the one we love.  Taking time to give my Valentine the best of me, totally focused on him and he totally focused one me:) 
So many days, we work non stop, eat, and come home exhausted, we are normally focused on work, children and family........so many days, we say I love you and fall in to bed and kiss good night, to wake up early and do it over again and again...this is called life. 
So I encourage you to take a few hours out of your day to make your Valentine feel special to you:) If you do not have hours, then what ever you do have. to keep our marriage  healthy you need and I need to have our spouses one on one attention to just focus on each other, not talking about love making but that is nice too:) talking about remembering why you married him, what you love about him, his hands, his shoulders that you cry on, his smile, his wink, all the things that said, HE is the
 one for me!!  Most of the time we lose sight of all that in the midst of everyday life, changing diapers, wiping noses, cleaning house, working, what ever we do in life. 
I am going to have a wonderful Valentine's Day and I hope you do too!  If you do not have a spouse then be with a friend and make their and your day special!  We all have love ones!

 

Hard week but fun weekend:)

I am not sure how people have stood being around me this week, my back has almost been out, you know that catch you can get and if you move wrong your in pain?  That is how mine has been:(
Monday was in office a lot which does not help it, I took some flexerill which normally do not affect me, other then help with spasms, but this week it turned me into a real Bear:)  I could not stand my self, I had several deals go haywire, had to read ajust them to make them work, had a HUD deal that sent me over the edge, wish I could say I handled it calmly, but I was fit to be tied.  Anyone I had to deal with  knew my displeasure in no uncertain terms, no doubt I was flat mad. 

 

 

Then April and I had some come to Jesus talks,  one day I told Steve just go do his work, I would do mine that I would do it alone.....poor Steve, but it was for his on safety:))) On Wed. I had lunch with my brother and his wife to plan the Roger's reunion this April, which will be a wonderful time having our Roger's family together:)    

     Getting invites out this week:)

Went to home group Thursday night and enjoyed it so much,help me refocus, then Friday am got up real early like 5am and went to a breakfast with some of  my class mates,

  I enjoyed that so much, worked the rest of day.  Got deals worked out:)  Sean, Sarah, Cole and Anna came over Saturday night and we celebrated Cole's fourth Birthday:)

The cake was totally something, you could eat the horse and cow boy and belt buckle that said Cole!
Cole told Sarah, IM so pacited, I bout to have heart tack:)  He is so stinking cute!  Sean did crawlfish and catfish, fried, huspuppies for dinner, the kids that could came over and it was a good time, then we watched Medea, probably not spelled right:) It was a good movie, great msg. felt like I had been to church!
In which, I did go to Journey church today, wow, it was such a anointed worship time and the msg. hit home, Alex is starting a series on "we are made in the image of God" probably not his title, but my title:) it is going to be good, I can tell:) God said in Gen. he made man in OUR image, which is the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, to think we are made in that image is mind blowing, esp. when I acted like I did all week, thankful for repentance, in which I had to apologize several times, and Grace:).....now going to show property this afternoon, hope to sell it!  Writing a offer tonight, a HUD house, which means it is banked owned, these drive me insane, but you got to do what you got to do in this business to help people out:)
Looking forward to some time with my Sweetie for Valentine's, we are suppose to go stay in a suite and have dinner at a steakhouse, then play golf:( he will love it:) be back Friday. I will love room service, alone time and if it is pretty like being outside:) If it snows we will just cancel our room and stay here and enjoy the snow:) I missed the last snow.
The cemetery sent me a pic of mother's head stone it is engraved now:) Walt's marker which is solid something, so heavy you can not budge it, is suppose to be back at the correct site of his ashes.  I will go by this week and check:)  I am thankful to sorta have all mother's business coming to a end, it brings me to tears still, I still have the things in the white trailer of hers, it was things that was left in her home once Kay and I got the things we wanted, so not even sure what to do with it all, its still so emotional for me, and if something does not go right, I get fighting mad:(((( like the cemetery deal. SO I know I am still in the angry part of grief,  time to move forward:)  just wish I could speed it up,  I think I have then like today, I just really miss her, think back over her last week and have some anger at how her week was, thankful she did not know. Wish I could not remember it, still have issues as you can see.  I love her and miss her beautiful self:)

Gotta run, it will be a busy first of week, then a Romantic Valentine's day and busy weekend with work:) Hugs to all and Happy Valentine's day!

A full weekend

Addie

Addie and Amelia

Victoria and girls do just dance:)

 

Friday I had a easy day, as you all know from previous blog, I got Gumbo, crawlfish, shrimp for dinner and made it a movie night with Steve:)  Saturday I worked that am and then Mika had her three yr old birthday party, which was fun, she loved her purple party, Jenn made it all so special for her. My friend and neighbor who is a single mom needed to study so I had her little Addie ( daughter ) who is three come over, she went with me to the Birthday party and played with the girls, she was so good:)  Amelia came and she stayed the night with us, Peyton has already planned to spend the night, so we had a a fun afternoon with dancing, play dough, coloring:)  Bob, Jack and Victoria stayed fro dinner, in which we had stew:)

 

I made fried corn bread patties.....hummmmm so good, of course the girls had spaghetti:) Sunday morning started real early, like 6:15am:)  Made scrambled eggs, cinnamon rolls, bacon for breakfast, had plenty of time before church:) 
It was such a pretty day, after church Steve and I and Peyton went to the cemetery, they still do not have mother's grave done right nor have they put Walt's stone back where it goes, I left a msg. on their phone and a note on their door, not to happy about that, mother's head stone has not been engraved, even though it was paid for in Sept:(((

this is not where it goes, it is not even on the grave:( we changed the flowers out for spring flowers:)

 

you can see where Walt's stone is:(  We then went to where Steve's parents are buried at Pinecrest and put new flowers in their grave

Peyton read the names on the stones to find the one with Averitt on it.  I did not realize that Mrs. Averitt, past away the same day as Wyatt, April 1st.  We then went to Steve's grand mother's grave, Mimi, that pic is on Steve's phone, the cemetery was beautiful with a pond and geese, where daddy and mother and Walt are buried it is ok, but not as pretty, nor as safe to go to, it is Roselawn, in a high risk area now:((( But we just go packing when we go, I told Steve Lord help we have Peyton with us in this area, but all was safe and sound.  We fixed Aunt Verna some new flowers too:)   Alicia and Alexandria are in Tulsa for her dance competition, so far they are in the finals:) Hannah is doing well with her goats, working on a larger pen for her goats:)

Jill feels little better, Sydney still has ears hurting, after being on antibiotics:(  keep them and Alex in your prayers, Alex looks exhausted:(  Next Sunday is Cole's birthday party at my house, I will do a family lunch after church:) Lot of Birthday's in March too:) 

Have a full day of work tomorrow and Tuesday, class on Friday:0 SO a busy week.....I am feeling the need for a few days off:)) Looks like I will be seeing when we can go to the condo for a couple of days:)  I am itching to go to Florida, Steve and I usually go in April for our anniversary, so I will have to wait, but will look forward to going then:))

 

I actually have a cruise on Carnival that I earned, but have decided to go in December, I try to go when I think the market will be slower, but if this year is like last year I had a major December, so we may change it, the market has just not slowed down like it usually does this time of year, I am not complaining, just making hay while the sun shines:)    Guess for today it will be in my thoughts about a vacation:)  nite                                                                                                                                       

 

 

To blog or not to blog?????????

Sitting here tonight, I have the time to blog but not sure I want to blog, so I thought I would start and just free write and see what I find in my mind to blog about:)

Hummmmmmmmmmmmmmm, well this has been a real busy week, several offers, closings. Really over whelming for me at times, I have Adult ADD, which I can normally work with, but this week on Thursday I could not get my mind to work, I had written a HUD Repo offer Jan 10th, it was accepted and you only have 48 hours to overnight all the paper work to HUD, I did not realize that my buyer had won the bid until I only had 24 hours to get my paper work done:((( So I go in over load in my mind, scrambling, my brain shuts down and I can not remember how to do the contracts, or how to go to the web site and get them down loaded, this is for real, I almost start to cry because I am trying so hard to do it and I have nothing to draw from..........then a agent comes in my office to tell me what happened to him on a real estate deal, I get so mad at what another agent has done to him, he is a new agent, I quit what I am doing on the HUD and work out his deal with another companies broker, I can not stand it when a agent bulldogs a new agent or just flat takes their business away, so unethical!  Yep, I got all railed up, talked to Byron got him all railed up, but getting our agent some of the commission when it was all said and done, will still have meeting with  the other companies broker to settle what happened or we will take them to arbitration.  So in saying all that, when I went back to work on my HUD offer I totally knew how to do it????? In explaining ADD, its like you get frustrated and when you do, you can not recall what you need to know to do something, I remember when I was getting tutored for my Broker test, the teacher who taught learning disabled children was doing Math with me, we just worked a problem, but I could not work it again, then I feel myself get anxious inside, then I can not even tell you what I am trying to figure out.......it is so very frustrating.  Once I got that HUD deal done, I told Steve I need to stop, I am through for the day, and I was mentally.  He made light of it, but it is not funny to me, it is something that is hard for me to understand, when I can do so many things, then when my brain goes into over load, it will not work.  If I go into a room that has everything messed up, I will not know how to start, it is so hard, I talk my self through it, one step at a time.  On the other hand, I can do so many things at once, I can eat, be on phone, be emailing, listening to others conversations, all at the same time:) My brain goes very fast, I can think of a answer to a problem before you get the problem out, I can think of a solution to something immediately, I have more energy then most my age and can get so much done in one day, so ADD is not all bad :) But I always have to make a list, put it in priority for my day so I will stay on task, then when I wonder off task, I will recognize it:) So guess this blog will be on ADD!  When you can not get your brain to focus you feel real dumb, you can not explain it to someone else to get their help because you can not figure it out your self to explain it. I realize a lot of these feelings are feelings I had in school growing up, instead of fight through it, I just thought I was dumb, and could not learn:((( I have been tested when Dr. Bryles was living and I worked at Living Hope Institute, on the testing ( TOVA) I failed, after taking 5 milligrams of Ritalin I did it perfect, there is a little flap in your brain, that is to go down on certain activities, ADD people the flap does not work correctly, the medicine makes it work, this is what he said, probably used medical terms:) when it does not flap back then you will try harder to think the answer or do something and you can't. So that helped me understand me, although I could not take the medicine daily due to blood pressure problems, it helped me tremendously when I did, like night and day difference in my train of thought, my thoughts stayed on track, not jumping from one thing to the next.  I have learned to recognize my thought pattern and try to stay focused, does not always work:(   SO that was a very hard day for me on Thursday even though it was very productive!  Today I thought I have worked the last four days 9 plus hour days and I am tired, I will got most of my Real Estate done early and came home this afternoon and had boiled shrimp, crawlfish,

Gumbo

Need a manicure, just a little messy:)

YUM!

 

 gumbo that a place fixed here, Steve and I ate and watched movies, it is now 11:30pm, he has gone to bed, the house is quiet and I am ready for bed:)  Amelia is coming over tomorrow, Jill and Sydney are sick, Peyton is spending the night so she will be excited that Amelia is too! Say a prayer for Alex and Jill, they have all been sick and poor Jill is sick now too:(  Tomorrow is Mika's birthday too:)
I still cannot believe how busy this Real Estate market is, I am ever so thankful, but also thankful for a slower day today.  I have about ate my self sick. but sure enjoyed my night.....hope you had a good night too! Now it's bedtime.....nite!

Here I raise my Ebenezer - AnotherThink

Here I raise my Ebenezer - AnotherThink

Click on the Here I raise my Ebenezer to see the article I am referring too:) I said that for people like me:)

Alex has been preaching on Ebenezer, I thought what is Ebenezer??? Since I had missed the first Sunday, I was in the dark.  I thought not sure what it is, then last Sunday when I went, I thought he said when preaching it was a a time of hell, I thought well I do have those times, but when it went on the over head it said HELP:)  So read the article and think on the Ebenezer's in your life:)

I do have a few, I think as you are older you may have more, one of course is when I was saved, one when I married, God for sure reached down and put Steve and I together and has kept us together. The next would probably be when Wyatt my first grandson was premature and did not survive, the next when Jared had cancer, the next when Steve and I had a major marriage malfunction, the next my mother having Alzheimer's and passing away.....which brings me to today:)  In all the areas, they were life changing to me, shook me to the core of my beliefs, I questioned the Lord, I wanted to run away, I turned to myself for my own way of coping, I put myself on a defense mold of survival, which means I shut others out, GOD WAS and ALWAYS HAS BEEN FAITHFUL to me, He knows me inside and out and knows how I will react, He listens to me, hears my cry, He leads me to the rock that is higher then I, which is HIM.  I was so angry in some of these times at the Lord, I questioned him, fought him, begged him, then gave into the fact there is nothing I can do, I have no place to run, Jesus is all I have and He is the only one who can help me, falling at his feet, I surrendered to him over and over and over again.  Yep these are my Ebenezer's!  I am sure I will have more Ebenezer's in my life as I am only 59:) but one thing I know, He will be faithful to me in it all, always is, always has been and always will be.  What are your Ebenezer's?  can you see past where you are at?  If not know that God has you in the palm of HIS hand, a lot of times, we question is God even real, is this just something I believe because I was taught this, is the bible even real?   Then we have these times when everything will fail us, but the one thing left standing in our life is the Lord, yes He is real, yes the bible is real and yes, you will know He holds you in the palm of HIS hand!!  Hugs

WOW Jan 12th...........

I rang in the New Year...................to the tune of being sick with the flu, been in PJ's at home since Jan.1st., I do not even know anyone I was  around that was sick:((  But its in the air.....

I have literally been in the bed or on the couch or in my chair, I have worked what I could from the house and used others legs:)  Missed our first sales meeting of the year:(  Our kick off meeting is this Tuesday, since I was not even around the office, it has all been planned, normally I take part in it all, it feels good just to walk in and not have anything to do, also feels good to know others pick up your part when your sick.

Which reminds me..............something that was said to me along time ago, in a marriage it is 100/100 not 50/50...........due to the fact it will not all be covered if one is falling short, but if you both give 100% then it is always covered:)  How I feel my co-workers are for me.  Very Thankful

Getting loans closed this month, on Wed., I thought I felt better went to a closing, Steve went with me, good thing, I got a migraine and was so sick could not wait to get back home in my bed, realized I was not as well as I thought, so I did not get out again until Friday, was weak but listed a home, need it sold by Monday:) no fever since Thursday am, feeling better today, can tell I am not at 100% but much much better.....so glad!  No one likes being sick. The only good thing is it has helped me get back on healthy eating habits!

Rain, Rain, Rain today here in Sherwood, it's a quiet morning, Cole man spent the night, Sean and Sarah were here early to get him to go to Stuttgart. Cole fell asleep last night on the floor playing, I want to post pics but for some reason my blog will not let me, gonna have to figure that out:((  During the night, he whispered NANA, I said what, he said, are aliens real?  I said no, did you have a bad dream? he said yeah...I said then lets think on your four wheeler and at pop's house riding it, he said ok,that is a good dream:) SO SO SWEET!  Max had a serious eye infection which put him in the ER all night, they did IV antibiotics and he will go back tomorrow for another round of IV antibiotics, it started swelling, Mark took him to a clinic, who gave oral antibiotics and drops but told Mark if it got worse go to ER it would be serious, so at 2am Hannah called and was coming here with them all, thought he may have to be admitted and she has no help there, but decided to go there and if he had to be admitted she would come here, so thankful he is ok:)

I have a listing appointment today, and showing a home, pretty light day which is probably still real good so I will stay well.  Tomorrow church, which I can not wait for, I missed last two weeks, and then open house, wish it would sell today:) 
Jared and Jenn have a weekend alone, her mother has her girls, so fun for them:)  not sure if I said the BIG news.......Alexandria got accepted to University of Arkansas...so GO HOGS!!! She is so excited, she will try out for cheer leader there, she is working hard on getting her self perfected to meet the requirements to be a HOG Cheerleader.

Not much else going on, still missing mother, but still receiving God's grace, be glad when days can go by without missing her:) I do not remember missing daddy this much, but I was much younger 18 yrs old, so I am sure I was caught up in me.

Looking forward to a good year in Real Estate! Setting my goals for 2013, personal, spiritual, business. Figuring out what to share with the company at the Kick Off meeting, we have a guest speaker but I  will share on Never Giving UP:) got a good video of Alexandria making a perfect example of working hard to succeed:)  I need listings, our market is down on homes for sale, have more buyers then sellers.............so help me pray em in!! hugs and make it a fun day!

2012 is past, 2013 will be a blast! can not post pics will later:(

Had a fun New Year's with Hannah and Mark, Pat and Donald and Sherry Maxwell, we all went to Sam's Town, never been there on New Year's, it was loud, they did a balloon drop, had a band, it was a good band, but I guess I am getting to old, it was loud and I was ready for bed, it did not help that I have a cold:(  I stayed in the bed most of Sunday, then went to dinner, meet with Pat and Donald, then stayed in bed all of Monday, watched NCIS marathon, then waited and waited and waited till the clock struck mid night! I cannot even remember when I have been awake at midnight:)

We gave Hannah and Mark 100  each to spend and they tripled their money, I realize some may wonder how I can gamble and some believe I should go straight to hell for it:)  I guess I will leave that to me and the Lord, I can promise you that if God said do not go I would not step a foot in there or any where else he has said do not go, in which He has said to me before:) Its not a problem for me and I may not go back for months, who knows I may never go back, just leaving that up to me and the Lord:) Just like me and dancing, I love, love, love to dance, and I do every chance I get, at weddings, our company's party, at home....etc., matter of fact I am going to get that work out to dance music so I will enjoy working out:) 

We got up and came home New Year's Day, too tired to take down Christmas, plus not feeling too good still, so happy to be away from cigarette smoke, it about did me in. Praying my family and friends who smoke can quit this year, they want to stop:) Washed my clothes and my self got on my PJ'S and enjoyed the McGill babies till Hannah and Mark got here then went to bed, showed property the next day and got way to cold:(( Stayed in all day yesterday ( Thursday ), did get my Christmas decor put away, I have never had it out this long, always do it by end of year, but we were in and out so much the end of December.  I had my sweet friend who cleans for me come today so the house is spotless and I am in PJ's hoping to just stay in this weekend and get well, I did get three sales this week, so that is exciting, even though it bout made me sicker:((( This weekend Steve will have to show anyone who calls because I am really taking bed rest to heed, I have to get well:)  This cough is about to break my ribs:) for real.....:)
I put out my Valentine's decor:)) I love Holiday's and to decorate, esp when I can use red, I love red! I have got to get my self back on eating healthy, I have totally ate anything I wanted all of December, no discipline at all:(( and I feel it, I am sluggish, pants a little tight:( just too much sugar, so its back on the wagon for me! I have got my work in order, loans ready to close, just need to get some new listings:) So I will work on that next week, just staying in this weekend and getting well.....I have had some lonely times missing mother but I know that is a normal part of  life and death:( but I sure do miss her:(    I just remind my self she is a part of me and I will see her again someday:)  Hugs and nite